"In conventional parlance, vanity is the excessive belief in one's own abilities or attractiveness to others," according to that virtual authority Wikipedia. I have always had a tug of war with vanity. I would never leave the house without a good outfit, groomed hair and make-up. But if I was hiking and camping I could care less what I looked like. In contrast, at the end of a sweaty day of hiking hubby cannot take me to a restaurant of any stature. I refuse to look that bad when eating dinner.
I had at least 25 pairs of shoes when I was working full time. Now I tend to purchase only sandals, tennis shoes, hiking shoes for this new life style but I have a dozen pairs of these in various styles and colors.
Today, the problem is that I can only wear two pairs of tennis shoes comfortably since my injury. Fortunately I have not been anywhere special in months and do not need fancy shoes. I rarely attend the holiday fund raisers that are around the corner. My mother wore tennis shoes to my daughter's wedding beneath her long dress. I honestly thought she was just being difficult, but now I realize I was the one who was being difficult. Her feet had not been in fancy shoes for years and she was not going to be in pain all evening just for us. She was never a vain woman. I remember giving her a magazine haircut when I was 13 or 14 and being so proud of how she looked. She just seemed amused.
Today I tend to begin to limp and walk slower if I have been on my feet for hours. We take a flat long walk down a wooded trail and I find my vanity forces me to try to hide the limp and to try and walk more steadily, in spite of any pain in doing that, if I see other hikers! I get irritated that hikers pass us on the trial when I remember I was the trail blazer in past. If we stop to chat I find it necessary to explain my ankle injury so they know I don't walk like this without reason. This must be vanity.
Recently, I had one of the clerks in the department store offer me a wheelchair from the front of the store and it took all my resolve not to deck him! I try to hurry when people hold the door to the Post Office open for me, embarrassed that I cannot walk faster.
How do people with permanent handicaps show such dignity as they hike through life?
I had at least 25 pairs of shoes when I was working full time. Now I tend to purchase only sandals, tennis shoes, hiking shoes for this new life style but I have a dozen pairs of these in various styles and colors.
Today, the problem is that I can only wear two pairs of tennis shoes comfortably since my injury. Fortunately I have not been anywhere special in months and do not need fancy shoes. I rarely attend the holiday fund raisers that are around the corner. My mother wore tennis shoes to my daughter's wedding beneath her long dress. I honestly thought she was just being difficult, but now I realize I was the one who was being difficult. Her feet had not been in fancy shoes for years and she was not going to be in pain all evening just for us. She was never a vain woman. I remember giving her a magazine haircut when I was 13 or 14 and being so proud of how she looked. She just seemed amused.
Today I tend to begin to limp and walk slower if I have been on my feet for hours. We take a flat long walk down a wooded trail and I find my vanity forces me to try to hide the limp and to try and walk more steadily, in spite of any pain in doing that, if I see other hikers! I get irritated that hikers pass us on the trial when I remember I was the trail blazer in past. If we stop to chat I find it necessary to explain my ankle injury so they know I don't walk like this without reason. This must be vanity.
Recently, I had one of the clerks in the department store offer me a wheelchair from the front of the store and it took all my resolve not to deck him! I try to hurry when people hold the door to the Post Office open for me, embarrassed that I cannot walk faster.
How do people with permanent handicaps show such dignity as they hike through life?