Wednesday, January 13, 2016
Books Now and Later
Well about 20% in I gave up on the Baldacci book that I had written about in an earlier post. It was written too much like a movie with James Bond types, perfect warriors with chips on their shoulders in wild situations. David Baldacci is a best selling author and he appears to be a good person as well. His books are too much like our over-the-top TV shows for my enjoyment. They would make a perfect movie with strong characters and lots of action, which is also not my type of movie, and...they are clearly written for the big screen. These are the books that seem to fit the need for escapism among the average reader. They require little in terms of critical study or detailed thinking on the part of the reader. This is the stuff that always seems to sell. Yes, I am a bit of an elitist.
I instead have picked up "Istanbul Passage" by Joseph Kanon. Much better. Good description of the country and city and creates the exotic, dark and scary mood of this country as WWII is winding down. It is a spy novel, but with a nice tapestry of the culture thrown into the plot. I really want to get to Turkey some day. I am about 25% through reading this one.
I also just finished reading a collection of short stories, "Half an Inch of Water," which I bought for my e-reader on Amazon after a PBS review. The short story format has always fascinated me as a challenging format. This collection was a good read, taking place in Wyoming near and on an Indian reservation, written by Percival Everett, who is a well-respected author. The descriptions of the animals, the desert, the horseback riding and the types of people that live there reminded me of growing up in Colorado. The stories tend to end a little abruptly and have sort of a mystical tone, but it is so different from what I usually read, that it sticks with me long after I have finished.
I also just finished reading "The Sense of an Ending" which I did not "get" until I read a review or two. It had a bit too much navel-gazing for me. I think it is a novel for younger readers. They love all that angst type of stuff.
A book that I read last month, "The Color of Water in July," was an OK read although it got pretty good reviews. It is an easy read with one of those story lines that jumps back in time and then forward to the present and then back, etc. For some reason writers are using this method a lot these days. It works, but not for everything. Good scene setting of an old summer house on a lake.
In the cold winter months I read quite a bit as you can see. In between I read my multiple books of poetry, but the house has to be totally quiet for that to work!
Monday, January 11, 2016
Again With the Small Talk
Not everyone talks to their wait staff when eating out,but I frequently do. I am "elderly" in the sense that I may not talk to anyone other than my husband for days at a time. Here in the country we usually only run into repair people. They are on the clock and not usually chatty...although some are very polite and endure my husband's insistence on bending their ear. But recently I talked to my wait staff.
Since this country is one of the wealthiest in the world we do get a number of immigrants, in spite of what spiteful candidates may tell you about how we need to close our doors. Our service industries are run to a great extent by those from countries with no democracy, no opportunity, and no promise. People who have no choice, but come to us for a fresh start.
My trip this fall during Thanksgiving to Florida resulted in quick talks with a young man at the restaurant who was so very helpful and polite in waiting upon us. Since we loved the view of the setting sun, we went twice to the restaurant for dinner and got to know this waiter better.
The place had an elderly cat that pretty much had the run of the place and caught my photographic eye. He worked around the tables like an old sailor at a bar. I am sure if he had had better eyesight he would have joined me on the table for dinner!
Anyway the young man, who actually was very androgynous much like "Pat" on Saturday Night Live and caused my husband and I some quiet discussion, had medium length curly dark brown hair and wore a gold earring. He explained that all of his family still lived in Cuba. He told us that life in Cuba was very hard. People were very poor and the newly opened tourist industry from America may make little difference. He said he did not bring money to his family who he visited every other year because they had nothing to spend it on. They could not buy any more food than allotted and it was against the law to raise animals for food. Obviously Cuba is still very restrictive and still very much a harsh country. So sad that being hungry will not be alleviated by any harder work or more money on the part of the citizens or a growing tourist industry. Just a boat's ride away and I am sure that they are thinking very much about change. But change comes slowly.
There is another person I met the other night when my daughter took me to dinner for my birthday, just she and I at a new Spanish tapas restaurant in her neighborhood. It was expensive as are many innovative places just outside the city. Most customers from that neighborhood make six figure salaries some even mid-six figures, and that supports such places. I rarely get to these interesting restaurants and have fun with my daughter buying all the odd foods and great wines---even though I think some are overpriced.
We had to get there early because we had another activity at 7:00 PM and so we were one of the few customers . Our waitress was a short and medium built blonde with attractive features and a very attentive and pleasant attitude. She had an accent that we could not place, and I, being the nosy elderly one, asked her where she was "from." She explained she was from the Ukraine. I mentioned I hoped I would have an opportunity to visit her interesting country some day and she said that she hoped it was not too soon as it was a very sad country right now. Poverty, war, and Russia had made her sad about her family and the living conditions. She said it was not the wonderful country it used to be. We did talk about the way they celebrated Christmas with a 12 plated dinner of wonderful foods, which were then stored outside on the very cold patio and eaten throughout the rest of the week. The 12 dishes are meatless and represent the 12 months of the year, pre-Christian and something to do with honoring their ancestors.
It is not totally irreligious as "After a prayer the father will anoint each person present with honey, make the sign of the Cross on their forehead, and say, "In the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit: may you have many good things in life and in the new year.""
I do love the way many countries hang on to such traditions because parts of our country move forward into the next year ignoring all the symbolism replaced by sales and economic success while pretending we are celebrating a religious holiday.
I asked her about her social life in this country and she explained that at first she used to go to the bars with the young people looking for a social life but found all young American's wanted to do was get drunk. She was looking for conversation, music, and maybe dancing. So now she hangs out with a few close friends and has given up the American bar scene. She did not tell this tale with any anger or criticism.
I find it important to be able to talk to people from far away countries without the work and expense of a plane trip and I like to see the world through their eyes instead of my well-coddled view. We are a global melting pot an becoming more so.
Since this country is one of the wealthiest in the world we do get a number of immigrants, in spite of what spiteful candidates may tell you about how we need to close our doors. Our service industries are run to a great extent by those from countries with no democracy, no opportunity, and no promise. People who have no choice, but come to us for a fresh start.
My trip this fall during Thanksgiving to Florida resulted in quick talks with a young man at the restaurant who was so very helpful and polite in waiting upon us. Since we loved the view of the setting sun, we went twice to the restaurant for dinner and got to know this waiter better.
The place had an elderly cat that pretty much had the run of the place and caught my photographic eye. He worked around the tables like an old sailor at a bar. I am sure if he had had better eyesight he would have joined me on the table for dinner!
Anyway the young man, who actually was very androgynous much like "Pat" on Saturday Night Live and caused my husband and I some quiet discussion, had medium length curly dark brown hair and wore a gold earring. He explained that all of his family still lived in Cuba. He told us that life in Cuba was very hard. People were very poor and the newly opened tourist industry from America may make little difference. He said he did not bring money to his family who he visited every other year because they had nothing to spend it on. They could not buy any more food than allotted and it was against the law to raise animals for food. Obviously Cuba is still very restrictive and still very much a harsh country. So sad that being hungry will not be alleviated by any harder work or more money on the part of the citizens or a growing tourist industry. Just a boat's ride away and I am sure that they are thinking very much about change. But change comes slowly.
There is another person I met the other night when my daughter took me to dinner for my birthday, just she and I at a new Spanish tapas restaurant in her neighborhood. It was expensive as are many innovative places just outside the city. Most customers from that neighborhood make six figure salaries some even mid-six figures, and that supports such places. I rarely get to these interesting restaurants and have fun with my daughter buying all the odd foods and great wines---even though I think some are overpriced.
We had to get there early because we had another activity at 7:00 PM and so we were one of the few customers . Our waitress was a short and medium built blonde with attractive features and a very attentive and pleasant attitude. She had an accent that we could not place, and I, being the nosy elderly one, asked her where she was "from." She explained she was from the Ukraine. I mentioned I hoped I would have an opportunity to visit her interesting country some day and she said that she hoped it was not too soon as it was a very sad country right now. Poverty, war, and Russia had made her sad about her family and the living conditions. She said it was not the wonderful country it used to be. We did talk about the way they celebrated Christmas with a 12 plated dinner of wonderful foods, which were then stored outside on the very cold patio and eaten throughout the rest of the week. The 12 dishes are meatless and represent the 12 months of the year, pre-Christian and something to do with honoring their ancestors.
It is not totally irreligious as "After a prayer the father will anoint each person present with honey, make the sign of the Cross on their forehead, and say, "In the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit: may you have many good things in life and in the new year.""
I do love the way many countries hang on to such traditions because parts of our country move forward into the next year ignoring all the symbolism replaced by sales and economic success while pretending we are celebrating a religious holiday.
I asked her about her social life in this country and she explained that at first she used to go to the bars with the young people looking for a social life but found all young American's wanted to do was get drunk. She was looking for conversation, music, and maybe dancing. So now she hangs out with a few close friends and has given up the American bar scene. She did not tell this tale with any anger or criticism.
I find it important to be able to talk to people from far away countries without the work and expense of a plane trip and I like to see the world through their eyes instead of my well-coddled view. We are a global melting pot an becoming more so.
Friday, January 08, 2016
It Is Late
It is a little after 1:00 in the morning. Hubby's snoring pulled me from the light sleep I had fallen into. I poked him to roll over and he immediately but quietly fell back into the deep sleep of the innocent. I had to pee. When I got to bed and tried once again to fall into sleep the clang of the geese on the river started up. The weather is now cold, into the 20's F at night and thus our Canadian visitors have begun to arrive with their rude middle of the night noises.
My neighbors across the river insist on using bright lights at their dock and shore. The lights are like little moons and crisply reflect on the smooth black surface of the water and somewhat blind me to everything else. These are the kind of lights that they ask you to turn off in southern beaches when turtles are nesting as they compete with the directions given by the real moon.
I admit defeat in falling back asleep and get up and make some decaffeinated Earl Gray tea. I am careful to bring the water to just boiling and steep the bag just enough and am rewarded by that perfect cup of tea. I sip the hot liquid and try to read the David Baldacci book with the tiny print. I am spoiled by the font size I can create on my electronic reading devices, and now that I have tried to read the many physical books in tilting piles around the house, I remember why I have almost given these up. The font is most certainly 10 point and Baldacci always write over 400 pages of this stuff.
The Friday tomorrow has a small list of few tasks and that does not worry my brain. I do hear in the back of my mind the drum beats of volunteer season starting up again shortly. Soon there will be lists to make, tasks to organize and marks on the calendar. I do so love the dead of winter when everyone seems to be in hibernation and leaves me alone.
The house is quiet except for the heater that kicks on and the click of the metal on the fireplace still cooling from the fire in it a few hours ago. We have lots of wood in the outside pile since winter just started and the propane tank was just filled last week. Hubby still loves to split wood and I am glad his health allows this. The fires are perfect for taking the edge off once the sun sets in the evenings.
Well, I should read some blogs if I am not reading my book. So I will leave you until another day.
My neighbors across the river insist on using bright lights at their dock and shore. The lights are like little moons and crisply reflect on the smooth black surface of the water and somewhat blind me to everything else. These are the kind of lights that they ask you to turn off in southern beaches when turtles are nesting as they compete with the directions given by the real moon.
I admit defeat in falling back asleep and get up and make some decaffeinated Earl Gray tea. I am careful to bring the water to just boiling and steep the bag just enough and am rewarded by that perfect cup of tea. I sip the hot liquid and try to read the David Baldacci book with the tiny print. I am spoiled by the font size I can create on my electronic reading devices, and now that I have tried to read the many physical books in tilting piles around the house, I remember why I have almost given these up. The font is most certainly 10 point and Baldacci always write over 400 pages of this stuff.
The Friday tomorrow has a small list of few tasks and that does not worry my brain. I do hear in the back of my mind the drum beats of volunteer season starting up again shortly. Soon there will be lists to make, tasks to organize and marks on the calendar. I do so love the dead of winter when everyone seems to be in hibernation and leaves me alone.
The house is quiet except for the heater that kicks on and the click of the metal on the fireplace still cooling from the fire in it a few hours ago. We have lots of wood in the outside pile since winter just started and the propane tank was just filled last week. Hubby still loves to split wood and I am glad his health allows this. The fires are perfect for taking the edge off once the sun sets in the evenings.
Well, I should read some blogs if I am not reading my book. So I will leave you until another day.
Tuesday, January 05, 2016
Finally Benumbed
Our cold weather has finally arrived. Below is the snowstorm that sprinkled flakes across my distant neighbor's yards, but failed to move west enough to reach us and I am not complaining.
While the snow was just a confetti of flakes and never held, it was our first show of reality that winter is actually going to come. Cold winds today and all my birds look like fat feathered figurines.
Added a blue filter below so that you can see how it really feels here.
While the snow was just a confetti of flakes and never held, it was our first show of reality that winter is actually going to come. Cold winds today and all my birds look like fat feathered figurines.
Added a blue filter below so that you can see how it really feels here.
Sunday, January 03, 2016
Thoughts for Those Who Protect this Land
A "National Wildlife Refuge is a designation for certain protected areas of the United States managed by the United States Fish and Wildlife Service. The National Wildlife Refuge System is the system of public lands and waters set aside to conserve America's fish, wildlife and plants. Since President Theodore Roosevelt designated Florida's Pelican Island National Wildlife Refuge as the first wildlife refuge in 1903, the System has grown to over 560 national wildlife refuges and other units of the Refuge System, plus 38 wetland management districts encompassing more than 150,000,000 acres (607,028 km2)." according to wiki. Sounds like a lot, doesn't it?
I am one of those people who, when seeing this designation on my road map as we travel, get all excited about the possibility to visit. I know intellectually it is not as pristine as my inner vision hopes. Sometimes it is smaller than we wanted. Other times it is pretty inaccessible and I accept that. I do sense that there are thousands of creatures and plants being left alone to blunder along in their lives through drought, flood, fire and storm and mankind's ever-reaching pollution. The area is called a sanctuary...a refuge and that is the mission..
"National Wildlife Refuges manage a full range of habitat types, including wetlands; prairies; coastal and marine areas; and temperate, tundra and boreal forests. The management of each habitat is a complex web of controlling or eradicating invasive species, using fire in a prescribed manner, assuring adequate water resources, and assessing external threats like development or contamination."
Does mankind do this successfully? No, of course not. We do not play God very well at all, but we keep trying. 60 refuges exist primarily to protect endangered species. Some of these refuges provide fishing and hunting opportunities to sportsman who cannot afford a refuge of their own.
The National Wildlife Refuge System must work with issues like urban intrusion/development, habitat fragmentation, degradation of water quantity and quality, climate change, invasive species, increasing demands for recreation, and increasing demands for energy development.
But the worst and most dangerous threats are people like the Bundys and other "hardcore militia men" (one wonders why they are not fighting for their country overseas) who think they own the earth and can take it from the rest of us to use as they wish.
Thursday, December 31, 2015
Tuesday, December 29, 2015
Raising Teenagers
Me: Anything you want to tell me? Talk about? Reveal about yourself so that I understand exactly what's going on in your mind at all times and so that we bond in a mother-son way, deeply, so that we have a continued good and healthy relationship so that when you eventually leave me to go out and have an life independent from me (despite all the dire warnings I give you beforehand) you'll call me on the phone every now and then and ask my advice on things and tell me how your day is going even when you are 20 and even though doing that is really uncool?
J: What?
Me: Never mind. Tristan how was your day?
(Something I sort of overheard recently. Been there and done that.)
J: What?
Me: Never mind. Tristan how was your day?
(Something I sort of overheard recently. Been there and done that.)
Sunday, December 27, 2015
Brain Drains
I have been in computer hell for a few days. It seems my download of Windows 10 to this old PC was NOT a good decision. As a result they (Geek squad) took me back and not to the future by loading Windows 7. I would like to upgrade to 8 where I was before the disaster, but have not found a way that does not cost money as I seem to have lost registration of discs or whatever. Reloads of most other software, at least that which I use, was fairly normal.
ANYWAY...this is boring. So lets talk about the weather. Days and days of rain or gray sky and not a drop of sun. Barely saw the rare full moon through foggy clouds on Christmas Eve. Took some night photos of Christmas lights. Well, this is also boring!
Oh, would you like me to list my New Year's resolutions? ... I didn't think so.
It seems that working on my PC has left my brain empty of thoughts for blogging...so, I will leave you with a few Christmas shots as we say goodbye to another Christmas Season.
This lovely house in the grandchildren's neighborhood gets super decorated every year.
The angel in the window is there every year.
Hubby and daughter checking out Santa and his reindeer on the house.
The three jewels in my family.
ANYWAY...this is boring. So lets talk about the weather. Days and days of rain or gray sky and not a drop of sun. Barely saw the rare full moon through foggy clouds on Christmas Eve. Took some night photos of Christmas lights. Well, this is also boring!
Oh, would you like me to list my New Year's resolutions? ... I didn't think so.
It seems that working on my PC has left my brain empty of thoughts for blogging...so, I will leave you with a few Christmas shots as we say goodbye to another Christmas Season.
This lovely house in the grandchildren's neighborhood gets super decorated every year.
The angel in the window is there every year.
Hubby and daughter checking out Santa and his reindeer on the house.
The three jewels in my family.
Wednesday, December 23, 2015
Taking a Pause
My last post before Christmas. This year the approach to the holidays was the easiest ever. Daughter wants to do most of the cooking, gift shopping was fairly easy followed by two afternoons of wrapping, baked a few cookies, and today deciding on appetizers to make at daughter's house since I will be up there tomorrow. Hubby and I put up a handful of decorations since we are the only ones to see them. No Christmas cards because my computer was in the shop and I wanted to design the cards myself. So, it looks like I am sending out New Year's cards. Maybe that will be a new tradition?
I spend my time today enjoying the musical links on my small laptop as that keeps me in the real spirit of Christmas which is SUPPOSED to be about the birth of the Prince of Peace. How easily we forget. Two people, a young carpenter and a young woman, perhaps barely out of her teens, in the final stages of pregnancy, seeking shelter and being turned away several times. This scene has become common today.
I am truly so personally fortunate this time of year and this becomes more painfully clear
as three of my young friends are fighting serious illnesses and another young friend is struggling with fertility. It is normal for us elderly to fight our health battles as we have lived a long life and I can accept that, but it is not fair when it visits the young who should be focusing on family and future. So, they will be in my heart even more so this season.
May you find a way to enjoy the true meaning of the season as the bright colors and laughter of the season surround you, distract you. OH, don't eat too much, because you will have to face all those horrifically annoying diet commercials in the New Year.
Friday, December 18, 2015
Holiday Expectations
They no longer call
But if they did,
And asked how I was,
What would I say?
This morning I saw the pileated
destroying that old tree.
This afternoon I heard a loon’s lonely call
across the silver gray river.
Tonight I will spend an hour flipping through channels
Before I find something I watched before
And will watch again.
Tomorrow…
Tomorrow I have nothing on the list
Of things I used to do.
They never call
But if they did
What would I say?
(Yes, this is a sad little poem, but it kept forming and reforming and so to get it out of my head I had to write it down.)
But if they did,
And asked how I was,
What would I say?
This morning I saw the pileated
destroying that old tree.
This afternoon I heard a loon’s lonely call
across the silver gray river.
Tonight I will spend an hour flipping through channels
Before I find something I watched before
And will watch again.
Tomorrow…
Tomorrow I have nothing on the list
Of things I used to do.
They never call
But if they did
What would I say?
(Yes, this is a sad little poem, but it kept forming and reforming and so to get it out of my head I had to write it down.)
Thursday, December 17, 2015
Rambling
Finally a day that is gray and cold and rainy. I like this forced coziness. Maybe a fire in the fireplace tonight? I have been able to focus on brightly colored ribbon and paper as the soft drizzle wets the ashy tree trunks. I have all my presents wrapped and waiting for the package delivery of one last minute purchase. I am done early and telling myself NOT to think of one other item that someone might like or that I would like to give. I am addicted to giving stuff to people. It does give me pleasure, but it sometimes is a burden to others, so am being fair this season.
(They still haven't repaired my PC but it looks like they have to wipe the hard drive and do a complete factory re-load. They saved my data but it means I have to find/remember what software I had on that PC and try a reload from the manufacturers if I can find the Serial numbers!! OR buy the software again. An expensive holiday season. I am not going to let this stress me, because that is bad for one's health.)
I asked hubby to take me out to an early dinner this evening and then offered we come back and watch a movie on Netflix and pretend it is a Friday date night. Hopefully seeing something we had missed seeing over the years. I need that!
I am heading up to the city on my birthday. Hubby claims he has a Scout meeting with grandson up there and that is why we are going, but that seems strange to me, so I am thinking they are trying to surprise me for my birthday. I will act surprised. It seems to be a Scouting week as we are attending the Eagle Scout ceremony of a friends son on this Saturday.
Tomorrow I have nothing scheduled to do, unless my PC is brought home and then that will be a headache filled day. If not, my day is precious and free.
Tired of all this rambling and boring thoughtlessness. I have a story from my trip to Florida and maybe I will write that soon.
(They still haven't repaired my PC but it looks like they have to wipe the hard drive and do a complete factory re-load. They saved my data but it means I have to find/remember what software I had on that PC and try a reload from the manufacturers if I can find the Serial numbers!! OR buy the software again. An expensive holiday season. I am not going to let this stress me, because that is bad for one's health.)
I asked hubby to take me out to an early dinner this evening and then offered we come back and watch a movie on Netflix and pretend it is a Friday date night. Hopefully seeing something we had missed seeing over the years. I need that!
I am heading up to the city on my birthday. Hubby claims he has a Scout meeting with grandson up there and that is why we are going, but that seems strange to me, so I am thinking they are trying to surprise me for my birthday. I will act surprised. It seems to be a Scouting week as we are attending the Eagle Scout ceremony of a friends son on this Saturday.
Tomorrow I have nothing scheduled to do, unless my PC is brought home and then that will be a headache filled day. If not, my day is precious and free.
Tired of all this rambling and boring thoughtlessness. I have a story from my trip to Florida and maybe I will write that soon.
Monday, December 14, 2015
Cheer Up, It Is Sure to Get Worse
Yes, I admit that our politics has put me in a funk. Then we have had the gun disasters that moved me into more of a funk followed by the ridiculous response of some of our Presidential candidates to our country's violence and the big joke that many think of the global climate change meeting, all of it causing me to research looking for a corner of the world in which to live where people are not so crazy. (There are a few areas, but not as many as one would hope.)
Anyway, my dental appointment as discussed in the prior post ended with a nice long chat and jokes with the technician who always remembers me and whom I like very much. We both are interested in photography, which is nice. And my dentist knows my name as well...so I guess there is still hope.
This did not uplift my mood enough to start hauling the heavy boxes of Christmas decorations nor the heavy tree upstairs after I got back home. Perhaps it is because yesterdays temps reached 70F that I decided I am just not going to do that this year. I am going to take a break from it all. Hubby has not asked about decorating nor seems to notice we are not doing it. I did purchase a wreath from my granddaughter's Girl Scout troop and that is not even hung because I cannot find the stupid wreath hanger. I have TWO! The evergreen circle, which seems to be shedding worse than any house cat, sits in its lovely glory on the top of the wood stack on the porch waiting for me to do something.
Oh, I haven't written about the best news this month that means my funk is more than valid. My PC crashed two days ago. Totally started eating its own files. I had booted it up and while waiting for my photography software to load I click on the trash icon to empty and it started deleting files like crazy. I saw that it said it was deleting 39,000 files and immediately interrupted that process, but not in time to avoid disaster.
I took it to the Geek squad as we have paid for annual technical support and they studied it for 24 hours and then called to tell me that it was the Windows OS that had crashed. They said it rarely happens to Windows 10 but it means a back-up of the personal files they can get at their end and reinstall of Windows 10. No wonder the W10 upgrade was free. (They may be wrong because my photography software has been giving me a test of patience, so we will see.) They insisted the hardware was fine which was a surprise. Of course for the software reloads I have to find the CDs, DVDs, and serial numbers, etc. I am writing this at 1:30 A,M. on my tiny laptop and would be doing the searching now, except I do not think hubby wants to hear me rummaging around at this time of night!
Do not worry. I will dig myself out of this funk. My PC fail is far less worrisome than the state of the world I think and I can do only a little for that, so I will lift my chin and carry on.
Anyway, my dental appointment as discussed in the prior post ended with a nice long chat and jokes with the technician who always remembers me and whom I like very much. We both are interested in photography, which is nice. And my dentist knows my name as well...so I guess there is still hope.
This did not uplift my mood enough to start hauling the heavy boxes of Christmas decorations nor the heavy tree upstairs after I got back home. Perhaps it is because yesterdays temps reached 70F that I decided I am just not going to do that this year. I am going to take a break from it all. Hubby has not asked about decorating nor seems to notice we are not doing it. I did purchase a wreath from my granddaughter's Girl Scout troop and that is not even hung because I cannot find the stupid wreath hanger. I have TWO! The evergreen circle, which seems to be shedding worse than any house cat, sits in its lovely glory on the top of the wood stack on the porch waiting for me to do something.
Oh, I haven't written about the best news this month that means my funk is more than valid. My PC crashed two days ago. Totally started eating its own files. I had booted it up and while waiting for my photography software to load I click on the trash icon to empty and it started deleting files like crazy. I saw that it said it was deleting 39,000 files and immediately interrupted that process, but not in time to avoid disaster.
I took it to the Geek squad as we have paid for annual technical support and they studied it for 24 hours and then called to tell me that it was the Windows OS that had crashed. They said it rarely happens to Windows 10 but it means a back-up of the personal files they can get at their end and reinstall of Windows 10. No wonder the W10 upgrade was free. (They may be wrong because my photography software has been giving me a test of patience, so we will see.) They insisted the hardware was fine which was a surprise. Of course for the software reloads I have to find the CDs, DVDs, and serial numbers, etc. I am writing this at 1:30 A,M. on my tiny laptop and would be doing the searching now, except I do not think hubby wants to hear me rummaging around at this time of night!
Do not worry. I will dig myself out of this funk. My PC fail is far less worrisome than the state of the world I think and I can do only a little for that, so I will lift my chin and carry on.
Friday, December 11, 2015
A Few Shades of Gray
We tend to disappear as we age. Women notice it more because our culture treats us like eye-candy from a young age. In my 40's I was beginning the process of becoming more gray in fading glory. I had to be more aggressive getting a clerk's attention in the store and more bold pulling away from the boring corner at the party and being included in the conversation in the middle of the room. Families love grandma, but tend to move in groups around her, rather than include her in the conversation...in SOME families. Thus I am becoming gray. I was a bit miffed this vacation when the 4-year-old didn't want to kiss me good-bye because he only kissed members of his family! He looked a little stunned when I had to explain I was his grandma! His nickname for me is not grandma. I tend to blame this on my son-n-law who is very, very, close to his family and I am guessing makes it clear to his children who they are and not so much who we are. I am assuming he didn't know my husband was grandpa either. We do see these kids several times a year!
Yesterday I had a dentist appointment. I have been going to this dentist for almost a decade since I moved down here. He has two receptionists. One is the smallest of little elder ladies with short cut dishwater brown hair and a tentative smile. The other is a very large elderly woman with blonde hair who has a small jewelry display on the counter in front of her which she sells. The large woman was behind the counter when I entered. She was dealing with making an appointment for another woman. The reception area is small and so I sat on the nearby wooden loveseat. and waited.
As I was waiting an elderly woman came in and very slowly made her way through the door. Her movements were careful and tentative.
The receptionist finished with the other patient and looked over at me and said "Name?" I gave her my name wondering why she never knew me? "You DO have an appointment?" she then asked. I made some comment about just loving dentists and dropping by anyway over the holidays...snark! We both laughed and she input my arrival into the computer. She looked up at the elder woman and said hello to her by name and entered her into the computer. A few minutes later another woman came in and sat down and the receptionist greeted her by name and then logged her in. I sat and read my new book on poetry and still was a little miffed that she did not know my name, but I barely remembered hers----names are a big failing on my part as I age.
A man came in next and she greeted him by name. I was beginning to wonder what was wrong with my personality, demeanor, appearance that I was the only stranger in this reception room. I was in a bit of a funk now because I was remembering that people usually remember my husband when we go somewhere, yet if I am alone, they often do not remember me!
And I as I thought about this, I realized it was NOT an elder thing. It was not because I was a lovely shade of camouflage gray. This anonymous thing has been true most of my life. I would just brush it off during those busy years. I remember once being introduced to someone who had actually been to my house for dinner but was a passing acquaintance over the years. I was younger then and remembered him!
I guess we all like to be memorable to people. We like to be known as the "humorous " one or the "charming" one or the "intelligent" one. (I am sometimes remembered as "hubby's" wife.)
Yes, of course I have people who know me on sight, thank goodness. But it is most disheartening to be the gray person in the room at various times. I mean I WAS the Prom Queen in high school and the editor of the school annual---it was a very small school. How far the great have fallen!
Yesterday I had a dentist appointment. I have been going to this dentist for almost a decade since I moved down here. He has two receptionists. One is the smallest of little elder ladies with short cut dishwater brown hair and a tentative smile. The other is a very large elderly woman with blonde hair who has a small jewelry display on the counter in front of her which she sells. The large woman was behind the counter when I entered. She was dealing with making an appointment for another woman. The reception area is small and so I sat on the nearby wooden loveseat. and waited.
As I was waiting an elderly woman came in and very slowly made her way through the door. Her movements were careful and tentative.
The receptionist finished with the other patient and looked over at me and said "Name?" I gave her my name wondering why she never knew me? "You DO have an appointment?" she then asked. I made some comment about just loving dentists and dropping by anyway over the holidays...snark! We both laughed and she input my arrival into the computer. She looked up at the elder woman and said hello to her by name and entered her into the computer. A few minutes later another woman came in and sat down and the receptionist greeted her by name and then logged her in. I sat and read my new book on poetry and still was a little miffed that she did not know my name, but I barely remembered hers----names are a big failing on my part as I age.
A man came in next and she greeted him by name. I was beginning to wonder what was wrong with my personality, demeanor, appearance that I was the only stranger in this reception room. I was in a bit of a funk now because I was remembering that people usually remember my husband when we go somewhere, yet if I am alone, they often do not remember me!
And I as I thought about this, I realized it was NOT an elder thing. It was not because I was a lovely shade of camouflage gray. This anonymous thing has been true most of my life. I would just brush it off during those busy years. I remember once being introduced to someone who had actually been to my house for dinner but was a passing acquaintance over the years. I was younger then and remembered him!
I guess we all like to be memorable to people. We like to be known as the "humorous " one or the "charming" one or the "intelligent" one. (I am sometimes remembered as "hubby's" wife.)
Yes, of course I have people who know me on sight, thank goodness. But it is most disheartening to be the gray person in the room at various times. I mean I WAS the Prom Queen in high school and the editor of the school annual---it was a very small school. How far the great have fallen!
Monday, December 07, 2015
Season of Peace
This is the season of peace in our country. We claim to be a Judaeo-Christian culture, but I am not sure anything from that religious history supports the violent rhetoric spewing from our leaders right now. Above are two of my three grandchildren at a very peaceful location wondering at the vastness of our planet and the lovely way their days of fun come to an end. I am trying hard to get out of this cloud of bitter, angry, sadness that follows me from room to room now that I am home. I am trying hard to think positive about the future for these children as we slide into war. So, I retreat into my photography to paint pictures of fantasy to share with you.
Sunday, December 06, 2015
You Cannot Get Away
Our first days south we stopped in Savannah, Georgia. It is one of our favorite cities in that it maintains romantic southern charm mixed with decadence, indolence, history, beauty, and something exotic that I cannot quite put my finger on and that few cities have. Above is the square, one of many, of that famous French revolutionary hero that fought for our revolution, Marquis de Lafayette. The flowers are because of the tragedy in Paris. Seems even on vacation the war follows us.
Saturday, December 05, 2015
This First Morning
It was a long ten plus hours in the car yesterday on our last leg toward home. I am always surprised to find the house is just as we left it when I open that front door. If I left a mess, the mess is still there. If I left it clean, then I admire my good work. Even though on this trip I realized my bed is not as comfortable as the many hotel beds and the mattress is now ready for replacement, I was into a deep sleep soon after my head hit the pillow.
Beyond afternoon canoe paddles in the mangroves, evening walks on beaches with sunsets, and high calorie delicious meals of seafood which I wisely never finished (except once, but I had not eaten lunch that day), it is now re-entry time. Always a bit of an odd feeling liking waking from a dream.
Early this morning, I look out my windows at the deck and see that the gnarly branches of the trees are bare of leaves, the frost is on the lawn and there is that pale pink sunrise painted fog that looks as if wood smoke hangs in the air over the silver quiet river. Sipping my first cup of coffee I am avoiding making the long list of things that need to be done after weeks away. I see the spiders in the corners have filled their larders with bugs that must be dusted out the door, the fan above me is covered in dust and must be wiped clean before I turn it on, one of the kitchen lights has burned out, there is almost three weeks of mail waiting at the post office, and the pantry and fridge need replenishing.
But for now, I can watch the pinks and purples of dawn kiss this very still morning with both man and animal still snuggled warmly in their beds. I do not think there is a God, but I pray for peace anyway, always someone who keeps her doors open and does not disregard any opportunity for help from a wiser and higher power. Everyday, I pray for peace before I begin my jumble of stuff to do.
Now I will go blog reading and begin an hour of catching up with all of you, knowing I have missed huge chunks of your lives.
Beyond afternoon canoe paddles in the mangroves, evening walks on beaches with sunsets, and high calorie delicious meals of seafood which I wisely never finished (except once, but I had not eaten lunch that day), it is now re-entry time. Always a bit of an odd feeling liking waking from a dream.
Early this morning, I look out my windows at the deck and see that the gnarly branches of the trees are bare of leaves, the frost is on the lawn and there is that pale pink sunrise painted fog that looks as if wood smoke hangs in the air over the silver quiet river. Sipping my first cup of coffee I am avoiding making the long list of things that need to be done after weeks away. I see the spiders in the corners have filled their larders with bugs that must be dusted out the door, the fan above me is covered in dust and must be wiped clean before I turn it on, one of the kitchen lights has burned out, there is almost three weeks of mail waiting at the post office, and the pantry and fridge need replenishing.
But for now, I can watch the pinks and purples of dawn kiss this very still morning with both man and animal still snuggled warmly in their beds. I do not think there is a God, but I pray for peace anyway, always someone who keeps her doors open and does not disregard any opportunity for help from a wiser and higher power. Everyday, I pray for peace before I begin my jumble of stuff to do.
Now I will go blog reading and begin an hour of catching up with all of you, knowing I have missed huge chunks of your lives.
Thursday, December 03, 2015
33,000
33,000 people killed annually in this country by gun violence. If more specific gun control is not the solution, what is? We own two guns, so don't assume I am against owning a gun for hunting or even self-defense. If you do not have an idea for a solution you are accepting the status that we live in a very violent country and it cannot be changed. Yes, people will be killed by knives, etc. but I do not accept that the long slog toward greater gun control is bad.
Saturday, November 28, 2015
The Downwinding
Thanksgiving week was very nontraditional as we headed with children and their families to Marco Island, Florida for the week. I will post a "few" photos later that show warm sunny days when our coldest days up north start driving me nuts. We ate out at a very nice restaurant for a TG dinner which was better than many homemade I have eaten. Only $40 a head for adults and $20 for kids and a huge buffet, so not as expensive as it could have been.
Said "Goodbye" to them yesterday (hiding my tears) as they boarded the plane and then we drove to Hollywood Beach on the other side of the state. I slept 10 hours straight last night and hubby slept 11. We must have been more exhausted enjoying the grands than we thought. In and out of pools playing shuffle board, pool, boccie ball, putt putt golf, beach walking and shell collecting. Yes, it was one of those perfect family holidays with as little tension as can be expected with six adults and 3 kids.
Today we drive out to visit my husband's parents' grave site in Fort Lauderdale and then probably we will find a nearby park to explore.
We are in Hollywood Florida now which is surprisingly very Cuban in mood. Not the rich Cubans, but middle class and other Cuban families enjoying a vacation with the grandparents and kids on the beach and brickwalk on the Atlantic Ocean. Lovers holding hands, children trying to kill us with wheeled little trikes, and adults helping an elderly aunt down the promenade. Almost like an Atlantic City without the gambling. We do not hear much English, although there are some white heads like us. Photos to follow.
Almost ready to go home, but hubby is not, so we will be on travel another five or six days.
Said "Goodbye" to them yesterday (hiding my tears) as they boarded the plane and then we drove to Hollywood Beach on the other side of the state. I slept 10 hours straight last night and hubby slept 11. We must have been more exhausted enjoying the grands than we thought. In and out of pools playing shuffle board, pool, boccie ball, putt putt golf, beach walking and shell collecting. Yes, it was one of those perfect family holidays with as little tension as can be expected with six adults and 3 kids.
Today we drive out to visit my husband's parents' grave site in Fort Lauderdale and then probably we will find a nearby park to explore.
We are in Hollywood Florida now which is surprisingly very Cuban in mood. Not the rich Cubans, but middle class and other Cuban families enjoying a vacation with the grandparents and kids on the beach and brickwalk on the Atlantic Ocean. Lovers holding hands, children trying to kill us with wheeled little trikes, and adults helping an elderly aunt down the promenade. Almost like an Atlantic City without the gambling. We do not hear much English, although there are some white heads like us. Photos to follow.
Almost ready to go home, but hubby is not, so we will be on travel another five or six days.
Wednesday, November 25, 2015
Bright Ideas
Years ago, when I lived on a tropical island just north of the great continent of Australia, I would run into the lone or pair of Australian tourists enjoying the moderate Muslim culture in which I lived daily. I think it was at an ex-patriot dinner party where the length of the evening found many had slid into more than moderate drinking and comfortably into politically incorrect talks, that an Australian fellow on his fourth (or fifth) bottle of beer said he would never want to live in America. What a bunch of wussies we were. Rules and more rules. "My God you cannot spit on the sidewalk without some Jack telling you to hold your spit."
Of course, most of us who live in the U.S. do not see that kind of petty rule enforcement and we are probably the first to take a somewhat dim view of police officers wasting their time on such. Unlike Singapore we CAN chew gum in public.
Still many Americans think we are a land of too many regulations which put a stranglehold on business and growth. This may be true, but I have been unable to get a small business owner to give me an actual example of some ridiculous/unnecessary rule that brought his business to a standstill or cost an unreasonable fee as a follow-up to his statement. They are there, but we cannot protest against them if we do not publicize them.
BUT I can think of rules that I want kept in place that protect citizens from highway robbery. For instance we now have more homeowners using solar and wind power to reduce their consumption of energy. This costs them money up front in setup, but over time the effort reduces the size of the bill from the power company. Every dollar saved by a homeowner reduces revenue for power companies. The power company may attempt to tack on fees if you install a renewable system, and they may try to charge you for sending power back to them by a process fee. Currently we have regulations that do not allow utilities to raise the cost of energy just because they are selling us less and they want to improve their profits! I like this rule because heating our homes is a necessity, unlike other things we may buy.
Other consumers are buying more efficient appliances that reduce their consumption of power from the grid. Replacing light bulbs with high efficiency LEDS means you use up to 80% less electricity. Smart thermostats cut back on use of heat or air-conditioning when no one is at home. All of these are cutting into the bottom line of your utility company. I can guarantee you if we did not have consumer protection regulations, you would be using less energy from utility companies and paying just as much if not more for that.
This is just one of the many, many regulations I support.
Of course, most of us who live in the U.S. do not see that kind of petty rule enforcement and we are probably the first to take a somewhat dim view of police officers wasting their time on such. Unlike Singapore we CAN chew gum in public.
Still many Americans think we are a land of too many regulations which put a stranglehold on business and growth. This may be true, but I have been unable to get a small business owner to give me an actual example of some ridiculous/unnecessary rule that brought his business to a standstill or cost an unreasonable fee as a follow-up to his statement. They are there, but we cannot protest against them if we do not publicize them.
BUT I can think of rules that I want kept in place that protect citizens from highway robbery. For instance we now have more homeowners using solar and wind power to reduce their consumption of energy. This costs them money up front in setup, but over time the effort reduces the size of the bill from the power company. Every dollar saved by a homeowner reduces revenue for power companies. The power company may attempt to tack on fees if you install a renewable system, and they may try to charge you for sending power back to them by a process fee. Currently we have regulations that do not allow utilities to raise the cost of energy just because they are selling us less and they want to improve their profits! I like this rule because heating our homes is a necessity, unlike other things we may buy.
Other consumers are buying more efficient appliances that reduce their consumption of power from the grid. Replacing light bulbs with high efficiency LEDS means you use up to 80% less electricity. Smart thermostats cut back on use of heat or air-conditioning when no one is at home. All of these are cutting into the bottom line of your utility company. I can guarantee you if we did not have consumer protection regulations, you would be using less energy from utility companies and paying just as much if not more for that.
This is just one of the many, many regulations I support.
Tuesday, November 17, 2015
Thinking, thinking.....
The news of the world that has ramped down my mood with its dystopian stories has cut me low and lost. I keep searching for a post that is worth both your and my time. I find that any ideas are like die rattling in my head and I am rolling no numbers. I am leaving Wednesday early for travel and have a post written at a prior time that will post tomorrow. Maybe I will have time on my trip?
The sniper and my fear (years ago) where I worked?
The update on the situation with my math student?
The book(s) I am reading?
My travel over Thanksgiving?
I am open to ideas....
The sniper and my fear (years ago) where I worked?
The update on the situation with my math student?
The book(s) I am reading?
My travel over Thanksgiving?
I am open to ideas....
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