Sometimes I feel like a waste. I feel as though I am wasting my precious remaining time. This usually happens after I go on Facebook and find:
One of my friends, a mother of three, is working her way through an innervation class memorizing tons of muscle names and what they do and getting an A in the class.
My SIL just rode 17.1 bike miles with her friends at lunch...I don't even have friends to go to lunch with, really!
A distant friend that I barely know has just finished a photography exhibit and sold a photograph.
Another friend who is fighting a serious disease has time to promote fund raising for her daughter's illness.
So....I logged off FB and made some Heath bar cookies and then promptly ate two big ones while they were warm and chewy.
I get that feeling sometimes when my books are going nowhere and I wonder what am I doing this for. I think it's probably normal in the creative lifestyle. We just need to muscle through such times.
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ReplyDeleteas I read your sharing :)
I don't care what psychiatrists say, food IS love. Few things make me feel as good as chocolate. But seriously, I think you're just having a down spell and my hope is that it will pass and things will soon look brighter for to you. Take care.
ReplyDeleteYou can learn Frenchh for me!!!
ReplyDeleteOh no, I feel I've missed the mark when I read your lovely illustrated and regular posts. My day wouldn't be the same without them. I didn't even bake today went to the grocery and bought a chocolate covered Bismarck and ate it in the car. Food is love at times.
ReplyDeleteI hope it helps you that you made me laugh. It helped me!
ReplyDeleteWe can be so tough on ourselves. We shouldn't be.
Makes me glad I don't have to keep up with a FB acct! Mostly it's the only way to find out funeral details in my extended family these days!
ReplyDeleteJust like a "Keep up with the Jones" neighbor race!
My feeling like I'm wasting life is purely from not doing my artwork because I'm too busy...
Hey wait... that's how I feel when I read YOUR blog! LOL!
ReplyDeleteNow, pass me a heath bar cookie.
Don't compare your movie to other people's highlight reel.
ReplyDeleteDitto messymimi:) And, oh yes, I'll have a cookie too.
ReplyDeleteWho needs those people bragging about their accomplishments? Phooey on them. I would rather hear about warm cookies.
ReplyDeleteDon't compare your movie to other people's highlight reel. Messymimi's line needs to be embroidered on a pillow. Love it.
I do soooooooo understand. I have lots of wonderful friends, but they are scattered all over the world. My phone bill this month will be horrendous.
ReplyDeleteI went downstairs and had a spoonful of Nutella. Oh, guilt.
Meh. That is one shortcoming of the Internet. We can make ourselves look better than we really are.
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Very few people post the story between the lines. It is like the Christmas letter in daily snippets. I love facebook for connecting with distant relatives and especially their kids..and have to remind myself that just before a friend won "best in show" at a juried exhibit, she unknowingly badly insulted another friend. Guess which bit of news made it to facebook. A fork and a Sara Lee coconut cake. Bliss be mine!
ReplyDeleteWhen you make so many people smile just reading your thoughts.. you're not wasting time.
ReplyDeleteI think it is an accomplishment to make a batch of cookies!!!
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