The kind of thoughts that the title above reflect have been tossing and tumbling about in my feeble brain this past week. They are annoyingly self pitying and self centered. Perhaps it is because I have been alone for weeks, perhaps it is because my step-nephew who was in the area called for a visit and then never showed nor called back, perhaps it is because my son has told me two weekends in a row that he is coming to visit and then cancels the day before, perhaps it is because my daughter is spending spring break with the in-laws at the beach, perhaps it is because my 12-year-old car is beginning to abandon me...perhaps it is because I do not have a dog. (Of course, there is always the very real and more perfect danger that I could get used to and really like this hermetic and vacuum packed existence.)
I couldn't do it, Tabor. I used to think I could but somewhere along the long road of life - I realize that I too, turn a bit sad when I am alone for too long a time. I think it is completely normal and the emptiness will pass. Even with the dogs (they do help a bit), I find myself feeling down.
ReplyDeleteI care ...and I live right across the other side of the world ...
ReplyDeleteA bowl of mushy oatmeal and a wallow in self-pity--how delicious. Now let's hope, as Annie belted out, that the sun'll come out tomorrow.
ReplyDeleteGet a dog.. he'll be happy to share your oatmeal. ;)
ReplyDeleteI hope your malaise passes soon. I'd be giving the step-nephew and son a bit of a hard time over their lack of consideration.
Sometimes I prefer cats or dogs to people, and being alone is a relief - if I don't have to do it for too long.
ReplyDeleteI care...hope you are sleeping well. What is with those kids? Too big to spank I suppose.
ReplyDeleteChastse the kids, mom. Board the dog and go join the husband. You miss him.
ReplyDeleteTake your time. Take a deep breath, then hit the road...to where YOU want to be in life...
ReplyDeleteSlap those kids upside the head or better yet be too busy when they come...
I care and had oatmeal for breakfast...
I'm a loner, and can revel in it for quite awhile, but even I (with my two dogs) have my limits. Sometimes when John is gone for long stretches I entertain myself by cooking up a crazy fancy dinner. I stay at work late, and rent movies he would never watch. I can't depend on my grown kids for diversion; they live far away and have lives of their own. So photography and blogging become more of a refuge from loneliness & boredom.
ReplyDeleteThis free time of yours will result in the most amazing garden, I bet, and more wonderful photos.
btw, apparently I do care about oatmeal for breakfast: your title caught my eye immediately!
Wow, you really have a lot of things to be sad about.
ReplyDeleteSeems to me you need a vacation or some kind of hobby. Something that would make you forget things that make you lonely.
When I'm lonely, I turn to my friends and go out whenever and wherever.
I too am alone for long stretches of time Tabor. My husband works out of state. Like in New Mexico. (at an IHS hospital). A good 1500 mile commute! Yes--he drives it. I'm good for about 9 days or so. After that I just feel weary. And grumpy. And I don't even finish my breakfast of oatmeal!
ReplyDeleteNo words of wisdom here.Just wanted to let ya know you're not alone.
I care. I do.
ReplyDeleteYou're a friend although you are at the other end of the globe.
And I too had oatmeal for breakfast and have it every day. With soya milk.
See?
Lots of people care. That's the nature of this crazy blogging world. We are all strangers to each other, yet, strangely, we care. Quite a lot, actually.
What I can't understand is, why are you sad because you are alone? Being alone is bliss. I am so glad our visiting family groups have gone again and I can stretch out, don't have to feed anyone, don't have to pretend a great interest, can watch TV, read a book, blog again, all without feeling guilty for not concentrating all my attention on the visitors.
I've lived alone for 20+ years. I get lonely and i often don't understand exactly why I ended up this way. I have dogs and friends and gardens and many interests. But mainly, I play music with others and that's a good connection. I don't care that you ate oatmeal for breakfast; I thought you might be commenting on facebook. :)
ReplyDeleteI know this feeling. Sometimes just writing about it helps it to pass!
ReplyDeleteIt may be the disappointment of broken appointments that makes you feel blue, rather than simply being alone. Of course, this comment comes from one who deliberately lives alone and loves it. As long as you care about what you had for breakfast, and you keep your appointments and you fix the car... I say revel in the bliss of aloneness.
ReplyDeleteHi Tabor, My situation is different --but it is upsetting. I have a wonderful husband and we are always together. SO--it's not that kind of loneliness...
ReplyDeleteWhen George and I got married in 2001, my 3 sons (whom I had always been very close to) just kinda disappeared from my life. I never dreamed that things would change so much with this 2nd marriage. They like George --but I guess they don't think I need them also.
I wouldn't change my life for anything (not even my sons)--but it is sad for me to go for weeks and weeks without even talking to my sons. I am not one to keep calling them. We text sometimes--but things are just very very different, not anything like I thought they would be. It makes me cry....
Well--don't know why your post made me think of this --but it is a form of loneliness for sure.
Hugs,
Betsy
Sorry to hear you're feeling down, but I do believe someone cares! We care, your blog friends really do care!
ReplyDeleteFeeling alone can be very sad, there are times I feel that way even when there are people around. I just happen to like to share life... seems everyone is just too busy with their own things at times. Hope you feel better soon!
But you do, and isn't that what is important? You know you are looking after your body well. Sorry things are a bit iffy on the loneliness front, but thank goodness for the world of bloggers. We are here. We can take the bad days as well as the good and we can try to share and care a bit. I pray it is enough, at least for this holiday weekend.
ReplyDeleteyou know, i do care. keep writing. about anything. just keep connecting and let us know how you are.
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